Vignette: Letters to God #2

Letters to God #2

Hi God,

It’s me, Daniel, the one born at Holy Cross Hospital on July 6, 1979 at 4:32 PM. 23.5 inches and 9 lbs 13 oz.

Happy Easter!

I’m really jazzed about the resurrection and the idea of healing and eternal life. Cool. When does all that kick in? Is there a resurrection for people who are barely alive?

Why brag ye about the living among the dead?

Is that not fair? Sometimes my feelings are not fair, but I am being honest about where I am, and if you can’t be honest with the omniscient, then who can you be honest with? (I mean, if I was lying, wouldn’t you know? And punish?) Who does God enjoy more: a fake person who is adoring or a sincere person who is unhappy with the program?

Not that I want to be this way. If you wish I were different, then that makes two of us.

So here we are again. When does all this resurrection and change kick in? I did the baptism, confirmation, the priesthood, temple, mission, sealing, primary teaching, ward mission leading … You shot commandments at my feet and I danced the best I could. Pathetic as it was, that was my best effort.

Was it not enough? What is the quota?

Am I lazy for wanting to be told what to do?

Am I prideful for thinking maybe I shouldn’t be told?

Some men touch the ark and are struck dead, while others eat the sacred bread and become king. I give.

-Daniel